personal self portrait.... self portrait of abandoned boys....... ....of a generation................... empty. hollow. starving for love. and affirmation from their father. Starving for a sense of being to be spoken into them. Full of pain with no identity as a man, with no identity at all. Walking around with barely any structure at all; insecure and....
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-------------------------------------------------------------- Over the past two years I've been on journey from slavery to sonship, and I've painted my process. This is the first of the series that is my life, but what is on the canvas is not an end to it's self. These are several pieces of layers and of lies, and in the coming days I will be working on paintings about true identity, sonship, and royalty.
being fatherless is really tough, especially when u r still young. It leaves a gaping hole in one's heart and and that person struggles through life trying to fill it. I should know cause i to am fatherless. It is not an easy life and half the time i don't even understand it. What makes it worst is when ur father is alive yet makes little attempt to comunicate with or even help u. makes me feel like he doesn't even care....yet i sometimes forgive....cause i feel like i need him.............. Anyway, enough about me, ur painting is really awesome and i added it to my favourites. i also plan to check out the rest of ur work. I hope things get better for u.
"What makes it worst is when ur father is alive yet makes little attempt to comunicate with or even help u. makes me feel like he doesn't even care..."
that's my situation.....and it indeed makes it exceptionally worse.....extremely...
thank you very much for saying this, i really do appreciate it. sincerely, wesley
your most welcome. I hope things get better for the both of us. I really do. it sorta makes u feel a bit better to know that someone understands what ur going through. that ur not alone or crazy. that someone is hurting just like you and understands how u feel.... it makes me feel alot of stuff that i don't know how to put in words. i wish there were less fatherless kids out there. that is a life i don't wish for anyone. a life i am sadly still living. a life without a earthly father there for u......
by real I mean that its just so relevant and transparent. I believe that a lot of people are in that place, and your paintings help put a picture to something thats too complicated to explain with words. Know what I mean?
This is an incredible painting. I will tell you what I see. A man being burdened under a constant strain and trying to isolate himself to escape it. It always comes back though, piercing through your emotions and turning your world into darkness every time. Trying to hang on for as long as possible believing that when you finally have the Strength to climb up you will be faced with the harsh reminder of death, possibly being taunted by it constantly.
Anyway, enough about me, ur painting is really awesome and i added it to my favourites. i also plan to check out the rest of ur work. I hope things get better for u.
that's my situation.....and it indeed makes it exceptionally worse.....extremely...
thank you very much for saying this, i really do appreciate it.
sincerely,
wesley
I hope things get better for the both of us. I really do.
it sorta makes u feel a bit better to know that someone understands what ur going through. that ur not alone or crazy. that someone is hurting just like you and understands how u feel....
it makes me feel alot of stuff that i don't know how to put in words. i wish there were less fatherless kids out there. that is a life i don't wish for anyone. a life i am sadly still living. a life without a earthly father there for u......
Even before reading what you wrote I thought of the Duran Duran vidio for the long version of “Wild Boys” [link]
I found the space to be what I expect A post apocalyptic barbarian survivor to see of the world around him.
I got an underlying feeling of emptiness, loneliness and far.
I found your artist comments to add strongly to the already strong narrative of the painting.